So Sad Lost and don't know what to do any one...

I feel so sad lost and a lot of other feelings and don't know what to do with my life any more... Even as I am typing this blog I am crying a bit o boy a big guy like me still crying... I just fell so lonely and lost some time no one to share my problems and troubles with... Not even my mother can help lor because if I tell them to her she will other just don't care or make thing worse for me... Y do I have such a life... I have survived for 21 years and with all God help but I am really getting tired of it... I just wish it can end soon for me or at least let me have a better life let me have my dreams and wishes come true.... When will that every happen for me I really just find then I have be having Bad Luck all my life for now lor.... No one cares no one is ever there when I really need some one..