Things R getting From BAD to WORSE...:'(

A lot of bad things I have done and are still doing now I really feel very very bad I would rather die now but just don't know what to do now.. No one I dare to share with too.... ah.... hate this feeling... really really hate it... wish I can just stop NS and go back to working life if not schooling life again.. find it must better doing other one of them but really NS life sucks... ah!!!!!! I just can't find someone who would just hear me talk face to face and comfort me...:(

I long for some one's life again....:(