AH!!!!!!! HATE my life

I thought all was good and well until just 1 hr ago... Had a fight with my mom again
I just can't take it.... If only i had money to just live on my own if not I could find him to just stay on my own I just want to live by myself and stay by my own only with people that want piss me off ah!!!!!!!!!!!!....


AH!!!!. Y every think we fight about anything but ends up about money and me not respecting her...

Money ok I understand but the respect wise she also does not respect me lor...

For money yes we need to save but some time you need to spend before you can earn right.... all she cares is earning and keeping it... eh..................

Respect wise like I said she also does not respect because like some time I really right she does not even say sorry you right or just stop and say what I need to say... when every I am right... She also very seldom lets me finish what ever I need to say too.. So I do i respect her.. Respect also has to be earn too... ah!!!!!!!

ok fine what happen today so stupid i also don't know how it can become about money or respect lor...

OK this is how it went

I went to the toilet then the floor out side was cool and wet so I ask what happen how come like that then she say don't know also so I say water in the kitchen sink then I check the bottom of it... then is was linking so I told her but I told her to check it her self la.. then she can't feel anything so i ask her to touch the floor below it la then it was wet la...
Then she say y don't respect her can't I just tell her it is liking I told her that is the way I talk that is the way I was taught in school so sorry lor....

I was brought up that way it is hard to change...

Anyway the point of today entry here is I find we are such hypocrites lor.. we are to kind friendly loving and all the good stuff are we are only outside on behind closed doors with friends or people that we only want them to know our good side

O but when the doors are really closed and with people you want to be evil with all hell breaks lose.. ah!!!!!!!!... I know I also in the wrong but she is also part to blame lor but she don't not want to take that blame she always pushes every thing to me all the bad and wrong stuff all to me.... ah!!!!!!!!!!!


any way it is late and i really need to force myself to sleep now it not tomorrow die late to attachment... ah!!!!!!!!


Hope tomorrow will be better...