What?? Do I want in life .. Is my past back to hunt me??

hm... I really am lost now find that I am going back to my old BAD ways don't care about my life

don't care about sch... Church ... Or anything just work ... I care abit may be because no money..:(

What am I doing ah!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really don't want to go back to my BAD ways I don't want to be like the past ...

OK abit about my past life for those who don't really know me:

pri sch life....hm...
pri 4 all most everyday stay in sch to get scolding my teacher...
pri 5 learn how to smoke.... Fight and a lot of bad things pri 6 also the same till psle started then became good boy...:
Sec sch life.. hm...
still got smoke lesser still got a bit of bad behavior but by the time sec 4 I change total never smoked was a good boy...

then came ITE:
had bad company

then smoked again but not that often then did not care about studying just work only but surprisingly I passed with grades to let me go poly...:S

then poly:

total change because I worked so had to get into poly for 1 year was ok then came 2 year which is now....

don't know what is up with me this term never cared to listen to what the teachers are teaching just sleep in classes .... What is wrong with me do I really don't fit in to poly life should i just work..... And get experience through work??? I really don't know...Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyone some one pls!!!!!!!!!! Help !!!!!!!!!! Me!!!!!!!!!!!! I really need to forces no what I really want...